YEEAAH. OKAAAY. Yeeeah.
For those not in the know, this is a reference to the Chapelle Show. Dave Chapelle is a genius, I love that show. I am currently tivo-ing all episodes I missed. Who could watch the Charley Murphy true stories about Rick James and not laugh? I challenge you. In particular, I like the moment from the life of Lil John.
Yeeahhh! Okkayy.
I just went through a shoulder surgery, which kind of took me by surprise in the amount of time it will take to recuperate, and I am a little bit bummed out. But the process, though slow, is one that cannot be rushed. I must take it one day at a time, and do only what the pt trainer outlined for me. Those of you who know me well know that it’s hard for me to place limits of any kind on myself, and external limits, forget about it!
Thank God for Scott, he has really helped me through this rough patch. The commonplace activities, the ones we go through every day, are simply wonderful when compared to not having that mobility. Joni Mitchell never lies – you don’t know what you’ve got ’til its gone.
Just the other day, I was taken my surprise at these limitations. I am driven by beauty, in sound, color, paintings, photographs. I am driven to paint, draw, and make music, do animations, and that’s why I love producing videos and DVDs, it lets me merge all those elements together. I knew I wouldn’t be able to airbrush or paint on canvas for a while, but I never imagined not being able to take pictures.
I spotted this huge squirrel in a tree; it was like some miracle that the tiny branches were able to take the weight of the little critter. I immediately darted for my camera, but then I suddenly realized that – I couldn’t just pick up my camera and shoot this image. My camera is a professional grade unit and heavy. I need two hands for this! Scott came to the rescue, and shot the picture for me.
I keep telling myself, I’m still a photographer even if I am not taking pictures right now. And in 3 months, when this has passed, I will never forget this passing time of inability and will hold dear to my heart the importance of taking action whenever the time is right. I will never again take for granted the simple act of raising my camera, adjusting the focus, and snapping that picture. I will take joy in the moment, and feel the bliss of the doing, the happiness of fully participating in the moment of being.
I love to be creative. I kind of live for it. Lately I have been doing some really wild writing, painting, and drawing. It’s like I’m welcoming back an old friend that I have not spoken to in years. I’m channeling beauty through my eyes and out my hands. But there is definitely a higher energy frequency coming out of me lately. I can feel it building up to the point where it may change me forever. Has anyone ever felt that? I don’t know if I am the only one.
I have to get this out, or I will go CRAZY. So I started painting again. Tonight, I started a piece called “The Palace of Excess” and I plan on painting a version of some more sketches. When these are finished, I will post some photos of them.
I know it’s been months since my last post. What has happened? A lot. I realized several goals and started bowling again. I made friends with the name that I used to think was horrible and I am even introducing myself as it – in combo with Leah, of course. Robin Leah. I may actually change my name to Jade. Its a real possibility that I’ll do that on a whim, but since I already wrote about it – that makes it a pre-meditated whim. Does that still count as a whim? No matter what happens, at least I have my creative spark still intact. I didn’t completely kill it when I went on that last analytical binge.
Peace and Love to ALL. Remember – You were born with potential!
It does not take a genius to notice that things are heating up in the world. Like everyone else, I use electricity and gas for fuel. Until recently, I was always concerned with conservation but I never thought deeply about the effect of all those greenhouse gasses in our atmosphere.
Media like the show Too Hot Not to Handle on cable make a showcase about how important and powerful it is to make these types of changes.
After watching this show, and following the links on the web site for that show. I found out about the stopglobalwarming.org website. You should check it out.
I believe that the time to act is now! Because it will take time for the efforts we make to reverse the way things are. The cumulative effect of repetitive use of fossil fuels contributed to this situation, so the cumulative effect of people trying alternative methods of travel and fuel use will eventually at least halt the negative direction things are moving in. The only way we will have a voice is to unite, because one voice alone will never be heard under the clanging of the social and economic machine that is driving the world right now. But it will take more than just signing online, it will take making purchasing decisions on a daily basis that will drive the message home – car companies and oil companies and power companies don’t care about petitions, they only care about how much money that people spend – or don’t spend – on their products.
Things are heating up but perhaps we can stop this negative turn of events. Check out the link to the stopglobalwarming.org site and join the march!